I am not a risk-taker. Anyone who knows me well knows this about me. I like stability. I like comfort. I like routine. I didn’t ask to be this way, but for some reason, it’s just how I’m wired. When things are stable, comfortable, and routine, I’m good. But put me in the middle of uncertainty, and it’s another story altogether. Funny then, because that’s the exact season of life I find myself in right now. That’s the season of life I’ve been walking through for the past few years now, actually. Not just the past few months, or weeks… The past few years. In the grand scheme of life, that may not seem like a lot. But when you’re deep in the pit of it, sometimes years can feel really, really long.
If you’d asked me a year ago how I felt about all of this, I’d have been pretty bummed. Okay, really bummed. But you know the best thing about uncertainty? You know the greatest part about being in the middle of the unknown? It’s right there that God reveals Himself the clearest. I’m not kidding. I spent a good part of the last couple of years angry with God. Sad, frustrated, confused. I didn’t understand why He wasn’t moving as fast as I wanted Him to. I felt like He had promised me something that just wasn’t happening. Without even fully realizing it, I started shutting myself off to opportunities, relationships, and challenges that were being placed right before me, simply because everything my life felt uncertain. Everything seemed too risky.
Then somewhere along the way, something changed. I wish I could say there was an obvious sign, or that I heard a loud voice somewhere in all of this. But an amazing thing happened when I finally stopped being angry and started to pray for peace and contentment: I started to feel peaceful and content. You know what else? I began to see what I was missing right where I am. I decided to start paying attention—And that has been a game-changer. Over the last year, I have watched God place so many new opportunities, relationships, and challenges right in front of me. Often. Most of the time, it’s been so far out of my comfort zone. But this time, instead of dismissing these things because of the risk, I saw them for what they were: God fulfilling His promise to me. See, He never promised He would move the way I wanted. He certainly didn’t promise He would move as fast as I wanted Him to, either. But God did promise He would show up. He promised He would provide for me. And walk beside me. And never forsake me. That’s exactly what He’d been doing all along. Just not the way I had expected.
So I’m learning to love this season of my life, however long it may last. It’s not stable. It’s not comfortable. And it’s certainly not routine. But there’s nothing that draws me closer to God than unknowns and uncertainty. And today, there’s no place I’d rather be than right there in the middle of that chaos—embracing all that He has for me now, while believing in all that He has for me later.
Maybe you find yourself in a similar spot, or maybe not. Either way, I’d challenge you to ask yourself: How would you be changed if you embraced some risk? How would your life look different if you chose to open your eyes to what God is doing in front of you, right now?
*This post was written by David Clark, a great ne friend of mine. He is the Creative Arts Assistant and Worship Leader at Sherwood Oaks Church in Bloomington, IN. You can follow him on Twitter @DavidClark